i miss the past :(

haven’t been on tumblr for a long time now but just wanted to just say this here cause i have...

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 10:53:19 -0400

haven’t been on tumblr for a long time now but just wanted to just say this here cause i have lately been feeling very depressed and i can’t explain to people without telling the whole story so this might take long.

so lately things have been going back to normal and even better but everyday without him chatting with me i just feel like the same thing is going to happen again like last time so im trying to keep my distance even still i love him but i can’t get attached or my heart just might break again. my parents have been fighting a lot and it makes me stress and i do bad in school my grades have been not good like last time and i cry myself to sleep every night and the only person who can make me feel better is never around when i need him the most but i still have my best friends by my side so its ok but still wished it was him. i know i talk about him a lot well its not my fault that i fell in love and he is the best guy i ever met and every guy i have ever met or have been with were horrible mostly perverts and jerks.

why can’t most guys be like him, ya he might not be perfect but he’s the type of guy who would care about you’re safety before his own, always wants to know what’s on your mind and is interested by your thoughts and mostly he’s the type of guy who would protect you from anything. i love when i get sick cause he would always get so worried and he cares so much when i don’t come to school and i like it when he gets jealous its cute when he does that. even when i talk to a guy or hang out with a guy he would always get jealous and im never going to be interested in any other guy and he knows that cause no one can ever be better than him cause its true.

well that’s for today i feel much better now and i know i get obsessed sometimes its just because i get excited and happy.

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Tue, 10 Apr 2012 10:41:01 -0400

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I miss him calling me his sweety or sweetheart even my darling selena :( He was the nicest guy i...

Tue, 27 Mar 2012 10:32:31 -0400

I miss him calling me his sweety or sweetheart even my darling selena :(

He was the nicest guy i ever met *sigh*. He always trying to be perfect to everyone else but to me no matter what he does i am always proud of him no matter what he does in life. He should see that he’s perfect already well maybe to me but he is well that’s what i think. So now it has been a month now he hasn’t chatted with me why is he avoiding me did i do something wrong i bet he doesn’t want anything to do with me well i should have seen this coming.

I don’t know why im the only one who see’s that he’s the most handsome guy in the class but maybe people see different. Even on the saddest day he always knows how to make me smile or laugh till i feel happy again. He even signed my shirt saying “Always remember me” and he gave me a gift even still im allergic to nuts but i still loved it <3. He means the whole world to me but i guess he doesn’t feel the same but who cares i’ll just be the one who says it then.

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Tue, 27 Mar 2012 09:28:21 -0400

From the first day i met him i fell for his charms, his smile and cute eyes. Every time he chatted...

Tue, 27 Mar 2012 09:27:35 -0400

From the first day i met him i fell for his charms, his smile and cute eyes. Every time he chatted with me i would scream inside for excitement but now all of that just reminds me of how much i loved him. I don’t even know if he really loved me and i will never know. He was the best boyfriend i ever had and the only one i really loved and treated me nicely even still he wanted to keep me a secret from everyone but rumors spreaded and people knew about me and him.

Just because of our different religions stopped us from being together. I remember the first time he even talked to me and he stared in my eyes and made me laugh i just miss that moment. If i could go back in time i would go back to that exact moment. We grew apart and then he realized in the future we couldn’t be together so he ended it and it broke my heart and i couldn’t stop crying every night without him for 4 months. There is still that pain in my heart for many months passed and i will never forget.

Everyday i see him just brings back those memories and every time when no one watches i cry. Moving on is so hard for me cause i was actually in love for the first time in my life with the guy of my dreams and i had him but now he’s gone maybe forever. I was happy that he even still cared for me and he would be depressed if i leaved which i wish i was leaving. I want to move on but I don’t want to hurt him or cause something bad between me and him. He said to me once “what happens if you find someone better than me would you leave me for another guy” he said. I said why would i like another guy your the best guy in the whole wide world and i was happy to fall in love with a guy like him.

So just one question i want to ask him till now did he even loved me for real or was it just a small thing did i even mean anything to him?

If he read this he would understand how much i loved him and even now i still love him even if he was the one who broke my heart and caused my emotional part of me to show so much. Just to say even now every night i still cry with every moment without him.

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Sun, 04 Mar 2012 08:15:49 -0500

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Sun, 04 Mar 2012 08:08:48 -0500

Liam Hemsworth, Jennifer Lawrence, and Josh Hutcherson | ‘The Hunger Games’ mall tour kick-off

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Sun, 04 Mar 2012 08:01:04 -0500

"If the love you think you felt goes away quickly, then what you felt was never love to begin with."

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:34:36 -0500

““If the love you think you felt goes away quickly, then what you felt was never love to begin with.””

- ~ Henry Mac

i want this with someone who i will spend the rest of my life...

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:33:08 -0500

i want this with someone who i will spend the rest of my life with to love forever

"Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it."

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:31:49 -0500

““Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it.””

- unknown author

my dream to go to paris with the one i love and live my whole...

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:15:10 -0500

my dream to go to paris with the one i love and live my whole life there

he is sooo HOT!

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 02:14:03 -0500

he is sooo HOT!